On my Mind

The pressure of our parents to do succeed in school is right now at an all time high. Not only is it imperative we get high grades to get into the universities we applied to, but high grades are needed to obtain certain high-level scholarships. In my case, the case for scholarships is more stressful than that of university entrance since I don't know or care which university I want to attend. I realize I sound like a huge brat. My parents have spent all this money so I can have an amazing high school experience and they are opening the doors for me to go to university as well. All they ask is I put in a little extra effort to raise my average a point or two. So why am I so annoyed about it when it really is such a minor thing? I don't know why I feel like this but I think it probably makes me a horrible person. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in my own selfish feelings I want to cause myself to fail to to spite someone. It's a pretty toxic thing to do and an impulse I usually get over. Writing about this is weirding me out..